Alanis Morrisette – interview

by Tanya Monteiro on 03/25/2019

Alanis and her twin brother, Jeremiah were born on 01 June 1974, (my birthday twins). Despite Alanis’s enormous success she felt isolated and alone, always searching for deeper meaning and purpose.

Through her music Alanis articulates so well so many different human emotions but despite this ‘gift’ Alanis had no sense of self. From the outside she looked robust but on the inside she was traumatized. Turns out the very very thing she wanted traumatize her, isn’t that so often the case.

In this interview Alanis discusses becoming comfortable with pain, avoiding living in the future and running from pain and knowing where the portal’s are so she could get to the other side of her pain.

Eventually she got to a point where she hated her own lying! So she tried to get to the bottom where there is no lie left. I just love that phrase!

Fame became a big magnifying glass, her self-doubt was amplified. Repeating patterns and pain eventually lead her to realise she was addicted to food, work and love.

Keeping the love you find A book by the author Harvel Henricks opened her eyes to healthy love, participation in both of you healing. Describing the stages of development in relationships, each taking five to seven years. Stage 1) Romantic love Stage 2) Battle for power 3) Healing space

Hungry for healing Alanis eventually figured out that the real work is staying in it, in the ordinary sweet mundane. That happiness is a state that is temporary.

There’s so much I love about this and so much I relate to in who I am as a person but by far the most important element is her reference to the importance of connection. Connection to self, to god and to ourselves.

Here’s the full podcast version, sadly I was no longer able to find the full video version.


Can you shoot a person who has abused your child?

by Tanya Monteiro on 03/21/2019

A salesman and loving father snapped at the magnitude of what happened to his son who was sexually assaulted by his karate instructor, Jeffrey Doucet.

On Friday, March 16, 1984, while authorities were escorting Jeffrey Doucet through the airport a man lifted his gun out of nowhere and shot Doucet at point blank range.

That man turned out to be Gary Plauche, the farther of the boy who was sexually abused. The judicial system exercised leniency with Gary Plauche by giving him a suspended sentence and probation. He didn’t spend one night in prison for what he did.

I can’t help but wonder, 25 years on if this father would “get away” with it now. But then, what is getting away with it? Why do some people react the way this farther did? What is the right punishment for those who sexually abuse other humans?

These questions are constantly on my mind. I feel certain that if we could find a right punishment allot more abused people would be able to accept and move on and allot more perpatrotors would be able to take accountability for there actions and move on.

But, we’re stuck when we find out about these secrets. Families, friends, authorities, all not quite knowing what to do next. I think it’s half the reason it’s not spoken about or it gets avoided, but we have to talk, we have to keep asking the difficult questions.

Can you shoot a person who has abused your child?


Unthought Known

by Tanya Monteiro on 03/20/2019

Can’t recall which podcast I heard this phrase but it’s been bounding around in my mind for weeks – The unthought known.

To me it goes a long way in describing what we think but don’t have words for, or what we don’t think but do feel, and still don’t have words for.

As I started to search for more information I came across a Perl Jam song with the same title and was struck by these words.

“All the thoughts you never see
You are always thinking”

I’m a long way off thinking this through fully but I’m sharing it cause it’s so profound to me. For most of my childhood I did not have words for my feelings, I still find it hard but I just love it when I learn something that describes what I’ve not been able to describe simply.

Here’s that Perl Jam song;

And the Wiki description of “Unknown known”

Unthought known – “It’s is a phrase coined by Christopher Bollas in the 1980s to represent those experiences in some way known to the individual, but about which the individual is unable to think.”

“At its most compelling, the unthought known stands for those early schemata for interpreting the object world that preconsciously determine our subsequent life expectations.[1] In this sense, the unthought known refers to preverbal, unschematised early experience/trauma that may determine one’s behaviour unconsciously, barred to conscious thought.[2]


Mega Cities by 2100

by Tanya Monteiro on 03/19/2019

It excites me no end to see how technology is leveling the playing fields and how smart companies can really expand their business’s by taking into consideration markets that were much harder to reach not so long ago.

This short video shows the world’s population centers are shifting rapidly. By the year 2100, it is projected that there will be multiple megacities with more than 70 million people – 2x the size of modern day Tokyo. The catch is you’ve likely never heard of many of these cities.

Finally, Africa can really catch up if it wants to.

Data: The Global Cities Institute


Surviving and Thriving – Teri Hatcher

by Tanya Monteiro on 03/18/2019

Teri Hatcher stars in the the Housewife series, I’ve never watched an episode but I know her face.

Teri was sexually abused by her uncle when she was seven years old. She started acting out and her mother’s sixth sense eventually kept her away from her uncle but no one spoke about it. Not a word or a question, just silence.

Fast forward to when Teri is in her 30’s and is in her home town helping her parents pack up their home she reads an article in the newspaper about a teenage girl who had wrapped a towel around her head, to avoid a mess, and shot herself, leaving a note saying Teri’s same uncle had sexually abused her for a long time.

Finally Teri was confronted with the option to stay silent or speak up and help. Thankfully she called the DA who managed to, along with other stories convict her uncle.

Honestly, I don’t know if Teri is thriving today but I do know by telling the truth there’s no doubt she is running out of excuses not to be responsible for her own life. Abuse is often a life long journey of recovery and I can see from this address she made to the United Nations that she’s on the path to Thriving and no doubt, helping others along the way.

“I am simply one of three women who is forced to accept violence as a part of their life story. I am one of three women who for the rest of her life battle the voice in her head that accepts blame for the abuse, a voice that is antithetical to self-esteem, self-worth, and happiness.

This is a statistic that has to change. One in three women can no longer have to face the stigma and fear that prevent them from seeking help. One in three women should NOT feel afraid to come forward and report it, as they so often do because they think they will not be believed or taken seriously. When society shames the victim by asking, ‘Why did you stay?’ or ‘Why didn’t you say something?’ instead of asking, ‘Why did HE abuse her?’ we just continue to foster a society where the abusers continue to abuse. 

“I am one in three, and I will be the one who yells from the rooftops until those numbers change. Until every woman who has faced abuse feels less alone and safe enough to find the courage to have her own voice, until violence against women is no longer a part of any woman’s story, silence will not be a part of mine.”


Leaving Neverland

by Tanya Monteiro on 03/15/2019

It seems no matter where we look right now people are talking about the documentary Leaving Neverland. I’ve not seen it yet, despite trying really hard to buy it online, but I do have a million thoughts running around my head.

Today I stumbled across this interview with ‘Good Morning Britain’ and had to share it despite not yet being able to formalize or articulate all those millions of thoughts and feelings I have about this.

To me, it felt like Piers was trying too hard to prove Dan Reed wrong. I wanted to shout out at Piers and ask him what would equate to hard evidence to him?

This is always at the root of sexual abuse, how do you prove it?


Hell Yeah

by Tanya Monteiro on 03/14/2019

Last week I was reminded of my favorite way to evaluate whether a decision I’m making is a yes or a no.

In Derek Sivers words, “When deciding whether to do something, if you feel anything less than “Wow! That would be amazing! Absolutely! Hell yeah!” — then say “no.”


The Empowerment Plan

by Tanya Monteiro on 03/13/2019

A kid of addicts Veronika Scott was brought up to mess up!

At college, Veronika developed a coat that turned into a sleeping bag as a class project. Whilst making many versions of this ‘coat’ she was told that people needed jobs not just coats and so Veronika at the age of 20 set off to create a just that.

Now, age 28 “The Empowerment Plan hires women ONLY from homeless shelters.

Like Veronika said: “I was the only person that could create THIS opportunity for myself.” just love this women’s drive and a reminder to me that if it does not exist I can create it.

and just incase you want to hear more or like me and just have to know the back story here’s her TEDx 10 min story.


Banishing BUT

by Tanya Monteiro on 03/12/2019

A long time ago I read this book called “Fire and Water, the power of passion, the force of flow” by Mike Lipkin and Reg Lascaris. Both well known South African individuals.

In that book I learnt to question when I use the word BUT. The idea, as I remember it, was learning how to pay attention to our own negative speak. After all the first person we have to learn to communicate with is ourselves.

They go on to say that ‘BUT’ should be banished from our vocabulary when we are communicating our feelings with another person. They called ‘but’, the eraser word because it erases anything that may have preceded it.

The solution is to replace ‘but’ with ‘and’. ‘And’ builds on what we have just said, it doesn’t wipe it all out.

Our words become the labels we apply to our thoughts. ‘But’ is one of those words I pay a whole lot more attention to these days. Try it,



used to introduce something contrasting with what has already been mentioned.
synonyms: yet, nevertheless, nonetheless, even so, however, still, notwithstanding, despite that, in spite of that, for all that, all the same, just the same; More
nevertheless; however.
“he stumbled but didn’t fall”
on the contrary; in contrast.
“I am clean but you are dirty”
synonyms: whereas, conversely, but then, then again, on the other hand, by/in contrast, on the contrary More
used to indicate the impossibility of anything other than what is being stated.
“one cannot but sympathize”
used to introduce a response expressing a feeling such as surprise or anger.
“but that’s an incredible saving!”
used after an expression of apology for what one is about to say.
“I’m sorry, but I can’t pay you”
without its being the case that.
“it never rains but it pours”
preposition: but
except; apart from; other than.
“in Texas, we were never anything but poor”
synonyms: except (for), apart from, other than, besides, aside from, with the exception of, bar, excepting, excluding, leaving out, save (for), saving More
used with repetition of certain words to give emphasis.
“nobody, but nobody, was going to stop her”
adverb: but
no more than; only.
“he is but a shadow of his former self”
synonyms: only, just, simply, merely, no more than, nothing but; More
noun: but; plural noun: buts
an argument against something; an objection.
“no buts —just get out of here”


Bettina Eistel – Adversity to Thriving Monday’s

by Tanya Monteiro on 03/11/2019

Horse riding as a child was where I sorted things out in my head and my heart. I’m not certain I was aware of that at the time but in hindsight, I am certain that my horses provided me with a lot more than a safe space and, I know they were smarter than I was. Now despite my joy at being back in the saddle I am finding it very hard and super tiring, so when I discovered this brave and inspiring human it literally stopped me in tracks.

Bettina Eistel rides with no arms, AND, she doesn’t only ride and groome her horse, Fabuleax 5 with no arms or hands, she competes with him!

Born in germany in 1961 with no arms due to the drug, Thalidomide, Bettina’s Mother never allowed her disability to be a disability.

(For those interested, Thalidomide was a drug given to pregnant women before it was known that it caused birth defects.)

As a child Bettina learned how to use her feet and toes as hands and fingers. With time she started horse riding lessons. Wearing riding boots with cut-outs in the toes so she could have ‘hands’ to feel more, just imagine that for a second?

Bettina can saddle, bridle, hose down, wrap a blanket and do just about anything else that is needed for her horse, Fabuleax 5. She rides by steering with her legs and holding the reins in her mouth. In addition to all this Bettina can write, text and put on her mascara on with her toes!

It’s important to consider the type of horse that Fabuleax 5 must be as a partner. Together they perform at a very high level in dressage. I’m so curious to know the back story in finding Fabuleax 5?

As if Bettina’s life is not full enough, she is also a Talk Show Host.  With a weekly show on the German TV station ZDF.

I’m in awe of this women’s courage and will be drawing on her guts, coupled with memories of my own childhood, during my weekly riding lessons from now on.