For some time now I’ve subscribed to a blog called A learning a day and learning, I have.
Each year I choose a song and a word that I use to help me stay focused and remember why I am doing what I am doing. 2016’s song is Rachel Platten’s “The fight song”.
Today’s discovery on A learning a day was a group called The Piano Guy’s. I absolutely love the sound of the piano and this version of the Fight song holds almost as much power for me as the one with lyrics.
My work with family sexual abuse is slow and often gruelling. It’s where the pain lies for me and it’s also a conscious choice I make each day to move towards my fear or my pain and as I do I realise it’s not nearly as powerful as I think it is when I am only thinking.
For me one of the most powerful tools to help me connect to this power and to my why is music.
Music gets me back in my body, it helps me feel when my most comfortable place is living in my head.
Recently, I was told, by someone I care deeply about, that my speaking out about my own abuse and the work I do with others to help break the silence is “my taking revenge”.
But, just like this song, it’s actually where my power is, where our power is. And the sooner we can start to say those things that we did not say the sooner we will release those internal wrecking balls and let go of the power they have over us.
For those like me that love lyrics here they are below:
Fight Song by Rachel Platten
Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion
And all those things I didn’t say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?
This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I’m alright song
My power’s turned on
Starting right now I’ll be strong
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes
‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me
Losing friends and I’m chasing sleep
Everybody’s worried about me
In too deep
Say I’m in too deep (in too deep)
And it’s been two years I miss my home
But there’s a fire burning in my bones
Yeah, I still believe